God is such a showoff...

On Friday, September 28,2008 - Jerry and I got the most horrible news of our life. Most of you know that we have been trying to have a baby for a year in November. Jerry had some testing done and he was told that he has no "men". We cancelled everything. We just wanted to be together. So, we prayed and we decided that God is in control and everything would be ok. No matter if we would have to go to an infertility doctor or adopt we would have the family God has dreamed of for us. Throughout the next two weeks we were angry with God, we were undertsanding of Him, we questioned Him, and we learned to trust Him. I proceeded to get Jerry an appointment with the top infertility doctor in Indiana and one of the top in the US. We felt like God was directing every step we got appointments when others said we wouldn't and things seemed to be going our way. On Monday, October 13, 2008 at 1:50pm Jerry and I drove up to Greenwood, IN to meet Dr. Samuel Thompson. He was wonderful. He had all the right answers and we had the beginning of a plan in place and made a follow-up appointment for Monday the 20th. Then, things changed...

On Tuesday, October 14, 2008, I came home from school and felt very tired and unsettled. I began to pray and the idea of taking a pregnancy test came to mind. So, I did. Instantly it went positive. Now you have to understand, we have been trying for a year to have a baby so I have been disappointed many times with tests. I screamed. And, I drank a bit of water and took another. I screamed again. At this time Jerry came home and I told him the news. He just looked at me in shock. And then told me to make a doctor's appointment to make sure it was true. So the next morning, I quickly took another test and again positive. I made an appointment to see a doctor for that afternoon. We went in at noon and again the test was positive and then I took a blood test for more proof and a date. It took two days to get the results back - so I took my fourth home test. Again, positive. The nurse at the doctor's office told me to quit wasting my money. She said in a sweet voice, "honey, a positive is a positive. We are just looking for a due date." I took her advice and stopped wasting my money. On Friday, we got the blood test back and the due date of MAY 29.

God is so good. At times when we don't understand we still have to believe He is in control. While watching one of those TV ministers the man looked at the screen and said, "someone has had a great gift and God wants you to know that HE gets the final word." And isn't that so true - my friend Jen said to me right when she found out - God is just showing off. All we can do is laugh.

Please pray with us for a healthy baby who will love Jesus and live a life for God.

The picture is alittle blurry - but here it is the first 3 pos. tests.